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Posted by Jen on April 11, 19103 at 18:34:38:
As I sat there listening, I knew. As I sat there watching, I knew. I could see it through the window; I could see it falling from the sky. What it was I did not know. Something told me it could be bad or could be good. I think I knew it would be both. I was hoping for the best, and hoping for the worst; as it approached, getting closer and closer.
It was 4 pm when it started. Four pm twelve years ago. I heard the phone ring, and my mother’s voice, as she answered it, I heard her say that I was hers and she would never let them take me. This still amazes me because, I was not yet born, it was during my mothers 8th month of pregnancy. I was taking it all in; I could hear and see outside of my mother’s stomach. She was aware of this, she knew I was different; after all I had no father and was never conceived. It scared the doctors, so she stopped her checkups. They were always calling her telling her that I should be studied, that I needed to be looked at closely. I was a medical miracle. But they had still not seen me. The night I was born, my mother died. I am not sure why or how. Most likely from giving birth without a doctor, but something inside of me tells me it was from shock. Because you see I am not what could be called a human, I am more of a creature, what kind I do not know. Before my mother died she had destroyed all the mirrors. I have never left this house, and never would, or so I always thought.
It took it twelve years, twelve long years, but those same doctors finally found out where I was. They came to me, and they captured me. I do not know if captured is the right word because I went with them freely, I knew they planned to kill me, but I knew of nothing to live for. It was when I first arrived at their building that I saw that light I saw as they put me in the small white room, through the bars in the window I saw it falling towards me. I thought someone may help me. Was it someone to save me? Would I still live? I did not know.
The day soon came, the doctors had been watching me. They brought an object towards me. I knew their intentions were far from good. I stared and did not know what to do. I saw the light, then I felt pain, and saw nothing but darkness. I opened my eyes again and saw nothing; from that time on I knew I would never again be safe. And now; as I sit here listening I hear nothing; as I sit here watching I see nothing. As I wish for life, I know my wish will never be granted, and that light will be gone forever.