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Posted by sore loser on September 17, 19102 at 23:15:03:
In Reply to: Conservative thought posted by Toby on October 10, 19101 at 13:20:42:
I really thought I was a conservative at one point in my life.
I went to a good college, got good grades, went abroad for a year, and had a string of nicely paying jobs. I never blew tons of money on alcohol, drugs, or . I maintained a network of supportive friends and connections with those more wealthy and powerful than myself. I helped new employees learn the ropes and taught them how to do their jobs well. I worked hard. I was good at my job and well liked at work. I thought highly of myself and people like myself.
Then I became increasingly aware that being successful had little to do with my skills, or ability to make the workplace better, or my worth to society in general. I didn't feel like I was 'earning' a cent of what I made under any standard. I began having trouble relating to my 'friends' ('you think too much' they would just say) I tried really hard not to think my friends, co-workers, boss, subordinates who thought I was so swell were just shallow people.
And so I became privately obsessed with the degree to which, my act of siphoning money from the economy (at a job any high school graduate could do) was an insult to people who for one reason or another, couldn't attain my useless job or my status on the corporate ladder. I couldn't look a homeless person in the eye anymore.
I have since gone back to school, and am acquiring some training to work in a field that produces something intrinsically valuable to society. (medical device, bridges, agricultural techniques, renewable energy) I would now find it unethical to limit distribution of anything I make or invent by taking a large profit. I now shun the trappings of consumerist society and displays of wealth. I hope to move to a city where I won't need to own an automobile ever again.
I know for the next five years or so, I will earn two-thirds of what I made just out of college, but technically I will be above the poverty line. More likely than not, nothing I do will come to anything and nobody will ever here of me again. That is all fine, I am happier with myself now. I can look in a mirror and not see a selfish hypocrite.
But I also understand (because I was there myself) that because of my political beliefs I am under contempt and mockery from the wealthy cles and the conservatives that support them.
It is hard not to be angry.
I know, I'm 'touchy feely' and I'm a 'sore loser' or I just need to get laid or get counseling because you think I got picked on during elementary school (I didn't) or I need to read that book that tells you that it is healthy and good for society if we would all just be selfish and self-serving. I'm sorry, I've given the matter lots of thought and I don't agree. Not that you should care what I think - you will all do fine, if I've learned anything in the last 15 years, it's that self-serving predatory jerks always do quite well.
I love all of you, and I would be happy if anything I did or made ever saved your life, but I certainly don't like any of you.